Where to begin?
Well, there was definitely nothing as cute as a bunny rabbit with a watch, who was very late for an important date. More like two cavities who got me the day off, and a numb face. And then there was the two trips to the DPS within the same day. So, that required driving the 25 minutes from Sachse to Plano, back from Plano to Sachse, again back to Plano from Sachse, and then after about 5 hours again back to Sachse from Plano. Let's just say it was a very long day.
The first trip was just to learn that we needed about four documents that we didn't have. The second trip was to sit from about 1:30 to 5:15, then to stand for about 15 minutes in lines, and then to wait about 10 to 15 minutes for her to get my information together and take my picture.
I spent most of the day alternating between my lit reading (Alice In Wonderland) and having discussions about how the DPS could be better and when we might have to come back with my Father.
But even though my day off was wasted sitting in a hard chair smooshed between an old Indian man and a middle aged Asian man, it was definitely one of the best days off I've ever had. Because the next morning I drove all by myself to work. And today I drove my own car, (well really "my" car) to work. And tomorrow I plan on having plans that don't require my mom's involvement, or anyone else's mom's for that matter, or even a friend's involvement in getting me around.
September 16, 2010
September 9, 2010
September 8, 2010
Rain
"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but it's about how to dance in the rain"
~Taylor Swift~
September 5, 2010
Never the Same Again
I found this from a few years back and wanted to post it here for safe keeping. I believe this was the summer of 2008:
"Many of you know that the Director of CYIA, Texas made the choice to not have a state wide training camp. I was really really bummed when I heard the news, and worried. How could CYIA be the same without the training camp? That was about half of CYIA. I did my best not to complain, and to respect Mr. Hasha, but it was something I struggled with for a while, even though I am only a second year student.
Then, I learned my best friend was going to be gone all summer and wouldn't be able to do CYIA. I struggled a lot with that as well. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to go if my best friend wasn't going to be there, and there wasn't going to be LeTourneau. But I somehow felt that I needed to go. God seemed to be pushing me that way in many forms: my parents really wanted me to go, my other friends influenced me, though they probably don't realize it, the training with Ft. Hood was better than nothing, I told myself, and my boredom. I knew I would have nothing else to do this summer, so I decided to go. I thought nothing could teach me as much as LeTourneau did. But I was wrong. Many of you know that I am an EXTREMELY shy person. About two years ago I would have looked like a deer in the headlights if you had said a word to me. And I would have probably acted like one, too. LeTourneau really helped me with that. Talking in front of people wasn't easy at first, but after a while I got somewhat used to doing clubs and stuff, but I still wasn't what you'd call outgoing. I was still quiet compared to most people. And I wasn't good at just talking to people, making conversation.
This week I told two of the most amazing people, that I'd only just met, that I struggled greatly with my shyness. They both laughed and said disbelieving “You? Shy?” I was shocked. This past week a miracle happened to me. That miracle was the gift of speech. That miracle not only helped me, but I believe it may have helped others around me. I was able to draw out a few very shy people into talking to me, and I did my best to make them feel comfortable and important. Humans are God's most precious creations, they are made in His image, and I did my best to treat them that way. Of course I failed a good deal, but I trusted that God would use me to help those around me. But through that I feel like I've learned a lot myself. And by getting to know those people better I learned a lot from them.
I also learned that the outside doesn't dictate your beauty. People tell you this all the time, but I think it takes some really beautiful souls to make you truly understand that. And I met more of those than I have ever met this past week. Another thing I've struggled with is my self esteem. I'm very self conscious about the way I look and how other people view my actions. But I also learned that if your intentions are pure, and your seeking God in what you do, people will respect you.
One night we shared nice things about each other and it shocked me the things people said about me. Or just mentioned about themselves and their own struggled. I realized that I was not alone. Many of you who were there may have noticed that I used about 6 Kleenex that night, but I was really touched by the things people said about me. Also, I felt more connected than I have ever felt in my life. I realized that I'm not the only person who feels the way I do, and that those people aren't on the other side of the world, their right there next to you. I really related to what Tracy and Billy said about their shyness, and what Leah said about feeling invisible most of the time.
At camp I felt like I was at home. I was so close to the Kingdom of God! It was the most amazing experience ever. It was so cool to be around so many people that have the same drive and beliefs that I do.
I'd like to ask everyone to pray for all of us as we continue to learn and do clubs this next week and that God would use all of us to reach the children.
I also have to say that Mrs. Palmer is definitely my hero. I hope and would be amazed if someday I can be half the Godly woman she is and do half the amazing things she's done. I respect her greatly, and love her. She has taught me so much and been a real example to me. Also, though I don't know Rebekah as well as Mrs. Palmer, but she too has showed me what real joy in Christ should look like. She always had Smiles for everyone (In more ways than one!), and I hope that I can reflect half the joy I have in Christ as she can.
I just want to say I wish we could have had a longer time together, and I wish I could have gotten to know everyone better than I did. But I thank God for the time He gave us, and pray that He has used it in all of your lives as much as He has used it in mine.
I pray that I will never be the same again."
"Many of you know that the Director of CYIA, Texas made the choice to not have a state wide training camp. I was really really bummed when I heard the news, and worried. How could CYIA be the same without the training camp? That was about half of CYIA. I did my best not to complain, and to respect Mr. Hasha, but it was something I struggled with for a while, even though I am only a second year student.
Then, I learned my best friend was going to be gone all summer and wouldn't be able to do CYIA. I struggled a lot with that as well. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to go if my best friend wasn't going to be there, and there wasn't going to be LeTourneau. But I somehow felt that I needed to go. God seemed to be pushing me that way in many forms: my parents really wanted me to go, my other friends influenced me, though they probably don't realize it, the training with Ft. Hood was better than nothing, I told myself, and my boredom. I knew I would have nothing else to do this summer, so I decided to go. I thought nothing could teach me as much as LeTourneau did. But I was wrong. Many of you know that I am an EXTREMELY shy person. About two years ago I would have looked like a deer in the headlights if you had said a word to me. And I would have probably acted like one, too. LeTourneau really helped me with that. Talking in front of people wasn't easy at first, but after a while I got somewhat used to doing clubs and stuff, but I still wasn't what you'd call outgoing. I was still quiet compared to most people. And I wasn't good at just talking to people, making conversation.
This week I told two of the most amazing people, that I'd only just met, that I struggled greatly with my shyness. They both laughed and said disbelieving “You? Shy?” I was shocked. This past week a miracle happened to me. That miracle was the gift of speech. That miracle not only helped me, but I believe it may have helped others around me. I was able to draw out a few very shy people into talking to me, and I did my best to make them feel comfortable and important. Humans are God's most precious creations, they are made in His image, and I did my best to treat them that way. Of course I failed a good deal, but I trusted that God would use me to help those around me. But through that I feel like I've learned a lot myself. And by getting to know those people better I learned a lot from them.
I also learned that the outside doesn't dictate your beauty. People tell you this all the time, but I think it takes some really beautiful souls to make you truly understand that. And I met more of those than I have ever met this past week. Another thing I've struggled with is my self esteem. I'm very self conscious about the way I look and how other people view my actions. But I also learned that if your intentions are pure, and your seeking God in what you do, people will respect you.
One night we shared nice things about each other and it shocked me the things people said about me. Or just mentioned about themselves and their own struggled. I realized that I was not alone. Many of you who were there may have noticed that I used about 6 Kleenex that night, but I was really touched by the things people said about me. Also, I felt more connected than I have ever felt in my life. I realized that I'm not the only person who feels the way I do, and that those people aren't on the other side of the world, their right there next to you. I really related to what Tracy and Billy said about their shyness, and what Leah said about feeling invisible most of the time.
At camp I felt like I was at home. I was so close to the Kingdom of God! It was the most amazing experience ever. It was so cool to be around so many people that have the same drive and beliefs that I do.
I'd like to ask everyone to pray for all of us as we continue to learn and do clubs this next week and that God would use all of us to reach the children.
I also have to say that Mrs. Palmer is definitely my hero. I hope and would be amazed if someday I can be half the Godly woman she is and do half the amazing things she's done. I respect her greatly, and love her. She has taught me so much and been a real example to me. Also, though I don't know Rebekah as well as Mrs. Palmer, but she too has showed me what real joy in Christ should look like. She always had Smiles for everyone (In more ways than one!), and I hope that I can reflect half the joy I have in Christ as she can.
I just want to say I wish we could have had a longer time together, and I wish I could have gotten to know everyone better than I did. But I thank God for the time He gave us, and pray that He has used it in all of your lives as much as He has used it in mine.
I pray that I will never be the same again."
September 1, 2010
Fearless
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"To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before, you’ve lost. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless."
-Taylor Swift
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