Ramblings

A lot has changed in one month. Life can change in the blink of an eye. For better or worse. Mine has definitely been for better.

Not to say my life is perfect. There are lots of things I struggle with. Anger, forgiveness, forgetting what needs to be forgotten, remembering what needs to be remembered. And compassion. Love. Especially towards those certain people....I don't always try as I should, and I struggle with pride. But these are faults that are gonna take years of working on.

For once in my life I'm completely happy. Yeah I get miffed when I'm awoken early, or someone makes me mad at work. But a second later I just think about what I have and smile, and the whole problem just rolls off me. I've been very blessed. I don't deserve any of this. I've done some horrible things, thought some horrible thoughts, broken my Lord's heart, and yet somehow he still finds a love for me, and allows good things to happen to me.

The little things bring more joy now. There's something about having a greater joy that brings out the little happinesses in your life. I laugh a lot more. I smile a lot more. I'm not so caught up in things that I shouldn't worry about. Some might say I'm distracted. But I don't mind. Life is not always good and easy, but it can be fun if you live it with the right people....

No Randomness

"You are on the path of my choosing. There is no randomness about your life...most people let their moments slip through their fingers, half-lived...As you give yourself more and more to a life of constant communion with Me, you will find that you simply have no time for worry."

These words have haunted and comforted me all day. I will not let this summer be meaningless. I will allow God to move as he will in my life and lead me on the path I need to be. I will not live a luke warm life. I will not half-live. I will not waste time worrying. It will be hard. It won't always be fun. But I will find peace.

Best Friend

I don't know what I was thinking
When I did what I did
You were all I ever wanted
All I need in this world.
You made me smile,
You made me laugh,
You even brought tears to my eyes.

But I did what I did
And now I must go on and live
With the mistake I made
That one big mistake

I wish I could go back in time
And erase what I did
I know better now
I've learned the hard way
But when it happens like that
There's no take backs

I wish I could tell you
Just exactly how I feel
But it would just make it worse
It would hurt me in the end

But I'll be your best friend
I'll always be there
When life is hard and decisions rough
I'll listen and care

And when dreams are big
I'll challenge you on
I'll see the kind of man you are,
You could be, and you should be

And you'll talk about her
And it'll kill me inside
But I won't say a word
Cause one day, I pray,
she'll let you down hard
And you'll look up and see
It's always been me.

Review of Enthusiasm by Polly Shulman

My Second book from my library spree was a very short, sort of tween novel. But I loved it. It's about a girl who obsesses over different interests, and one of these is Jane Austen's "Pride and Prejudice". But it's not really about that girl. It's about her friend, and her emotional struggle with the teenage drama that comes up. And her desire to be loyal to her good friend, but also to be happy. It was a quick, easy, and relate-able read. I love anything Jane Austen, and I love that it didn't dwell so much on the book, but on the characters of Shulman's own story. It was a very sweet teen romance. And I'd recommend it for anyone who likes Jane.

Music My Love....

Yes, you don't see me for months, and I post twice in the same day! Shocking...

But I have a lot of time, and a lot of interesting things to share. Namely music. I love music so much. And I'm going through an odd stage. More of a European music stage. I truly love it. So unique and different from American junk.

The first of these artists is English Ellie Goulding. She's a 24 year old singer-songwriter. I love her sound, some really catchy songs, and some really beautiful lyrics.

"Under The Sheets"

"The End"


The Foals are an English band from Oxford. They play some hauntingly beautiful music. And I love the sound of his voice in contrast with the music playing. I love bands like them that get together and make creative and unusual music.

"Spanish Sahara"

"Blue Blood"


Amy MacDonald is another singer songwriter, but she is from Scotland. I love listening to people with accents sing. It's so strange and foreign, and yet so similar. It's amazing how sometimes you can't tell, and sometimes it's so evident. It fascinates me, and makes me wish I had an accent. Hers is especially strong when she talks, but not always in her songs. I love her, and the way she does her eyeliner is incredible.

"Run"

"Don't Tell Me That It's Over"


The Veronicas have long been a favorite of mine. They are two twins from Australia who make amazingly catchy and relatable music. I don't know what it is about musicians from across the pond, but they truly feel things strongly and express them amazingly.

"Revenge Is Sweeter(Than You Ever Were)"

"All I Have"


The Script is from Ireland and I love love love "for the first time" it moves me...

"For The First Time"


Adele is another English singer-songwriter. She has an incredible voice. And through it she makes you feel emotions. She sings songs that hit so close to home, and bring up old memories and feelings. Her lyrics are beautiful and so spectacular.

"Rolling In The Deep"

"Don't You Remember"

Review of Secondhand Charm by Julie Berry

Recently I realized what a hole I've had in my life these past few months. So, I dug up my old library card and a few blogs I used to check constantly for updates of things to read. One of the books on this list was Secondhand Charm by Julie Berry.

It was a fast, easy read, set in a fictional land. The characters were likeable, the romance just enough, but it was nothing spectacular. The plot was a little slow, and predictable, open for a sequel. Typical. There was nothing particularly wrong with the book. It was just the same as any other sort of fairytale-type book, only less creative. The "magic" was not really magic and the myths were underdeveloped. The scene where she walks down the isle as the Princess's bridesmaid is strange, because she details the depiction of Moses, Adam and Eve, and other Biblical characters. Kind of strange in the middle of a mythical kingdom.

All and all it was a decent book. I now have one down, and four to go!

A Light Exists In Spring

By Emily Dickenson

A light exists in spring
Not present on the year
At any other period.
When March is scarcely here
A color stands abroad
On solitary hills
That science cannot overtake,
But human naturefeels.


Hello Thoughts of Summer, it's been a long time...