No Randomness

"You are on the path of my choosing. There is no randomness about your life...most people let their moments slip through their fingers, half-lived...As you give yourself more and more to a life of constant communion with Me, you will find that you simply have no time for worry."

These words have haunted and comforted me all day. I will not let this summer be meaningless. I will allow God to move as he will in my life and lead me on the path I need to be. I will not live a luke warm life. I will not half-live. I will not waste time worrying. It will be hard. It won't always be fun. But I will find peace.

Best Friend

I don't know what I was thinking
When I did what I did
You were all I ever wanted
All I need in this world.
You made me smile,
You made me laugh,
You even brought tears to my eyes.

But I did what I did
And now I must go on and live
With the mistake I made
That one big mistake

I wish I could go back in time
And erase what I did
I know better now
I've learned the hard way
But when it happens like that
There's no take backs

I wish I could tell you
Just exactly how I feel
But it would just make it worse
It would hurt me in the end

But I'll be your best friend
I'll always be there
When life is hard and decisions rough
I'll listen and care

And when dreams are big
I'll challenge you on
I'll see the kind of man you are,
You could be, and you should be

And you'll talk about her
And it'll kill me inside
But I won't say a word
Cause one day, I pray,
she'll let you down hard
And you'll look up and see
It's always been me.